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Saturday, October 25, 2003
Um... Why do people keep getting here by searching for stuff about bread mold?! Do I talk about these things often?! No! ::weeps!!::
I need to iron... I think I'll steal my roommate's when she's not looking! ::cackles madly:: ...I'm so stupid. // 09:55 p.m.
[x] Saturday, October 25, 2003
...Someone offered to host my website. I dunno what to do! What does it meeeeean?! // 09:52 p.m.
[x] Saturday, October 25, 2003
Alone and depressed! What a great combo!
I feel like I'll never have any one. I makes me want to jump in front of a train.
I'm sewing my finger! Yay! // 04:53 p.m.
[x] Saturday, October 25, 2003
Can I pretend? I want to... I want to pretend that you're talking about me. I want to pretend that all the nice things that you say are about me. I want to be the onoe to make you happy. I want to be the one that you look to and lean on. I want to pretend that there's only me. And I want to believe that you'll never leave me. I just want to pretend that it will be you and me forever even though I know the truth.
I'll read your story, A-chan! As long as you promise not to throw yourself in front of a train and run away while I'm in a coma.
I went to the hospital! Maybe if you IM me, I'll tell you more. // 04:32 p.m.
[x] Saturday, October 25, 2003
Dammit... Alli's never around anymore when I need to talk to her. It really makes me sad...
My torso is in extreme pain. I think Catherine tried to poison me.
// 12:03 a.m.
[x] Tuesday, October 7, 2003
I'm feeling very self destructive today... I feel like I want to do bad things. Like prostiture myself or something equally as horrid. I want some one to hit me or grope me to shock me out of this. I feel so useless. I want to make it better so my life will continue. I want to grow up. I want to be free from these things that hold me in this cycle of pain. Samsara. Death and Redeath. What have I done to deserve this? Didn't I love you enough?
I feel like... I'll take any thing I can get right now. I don't want a thing of my own. Instead I'll take your leftovers. I need something for me and I don't care if it's used and broken. It will be mine. I'll make it my own until any traces you left will be erased. And then we'll hold each other and weep like the two discarded dolls that we are. Atleast I won't be alone. // 05:29 p.m.
[x] Tuesday, October 7, 2003
There are very few people I trust. If you happen to be one of those people, I will likely believe what you tell me without hesitation. I have faith that you won't hurt me. I have faith that you won't lie. I supposed maybe I should be a little less trusting and nice. I just get hurt that way.
I haven't really smiled since Sunday. My stomache is in knots and I feel the constant need to cry. My world has shifted from four supporting pillars to two and I'm off balance. Two less people to protect me; two more people to torment me. I suppose I'll get used to it someday. I don't let many people inside my space and I'm less likely to let you out. If you wanted to go you could have just said so. You didn't have to knock me unconscious and climb out the back window.
Is it really so baffling that I would care?
// 12:42 p.m.
[x] Sunday, October 5, 2003
Fuck You. // 02:04 a.m.
[x] Wednesday, October 1, 2003
...by "real life version" I meant manga style. ...Don't look at me like that! It's real to me, okay?! // 10:35 p.m.
[x] Wednesday, October 1, 2003
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! I had three cakes today and I think I'm going to die...
Gamma is so sexy and he has a chainsaw sword and he's like the real life version of some of my skinny tall people drawings! ::swoons:: // 10:33 p.m.
[x] Saturday, September 27, 2003
Did you know?! Some one got here searching of "how to be dining hall theif". Well, seeing as I am a dining hall theif, I will tell you how to properly steal for the said place.
1. Take what food you want and stick it on a plate.
2. Make sure nona of the dining hall staff is watching too closely!
3. Walk out of the dining hall.
4. Don't look nervous! Be confident! You just want to eat outside! you'll return the dishes soon! *nudge*wink*
So, I hope that helped!
Music -- Morning Musume - Shabondama
I haven't taken a shower in a while! I'm gonna go do that so I won't be stinky! // 11:50 p.m.
[x] Tuesday, September 23, 2003
Maybe Davie wouldn't have jumped if mean, old Mr. Mendez hadn't told him that he would sprout wings.
NYA! Just think happy thought and be one with the angels! // 11:25 p.m.
[x] Tuesday, September 23, 2003
My back hurts... A lot! It makes me want to stab scissors into it to make it feel better! Um... ::hide the scissors from herself:: I'm bad! // 10:14 p.m.
[x] Tuesday, September 23, 2003
It smells like my roommates having an affair with wet naps... // 01:29 p.m.
[x] Wednesday, September 17, 2003
I realized why I can't get a boyfriend. I don't smell right. Stosh told me girls have nice smells cos they wear nice girly thingies... He said even if they don't they tend to smell good. Stosh said I didn't smell like anything... I feel left out of the girl loop. // 12:16 a.m.
[x] Friday, September 12, 2003
See that little hide button on the bottom of the page? I joined a hide fan list! I'm so cool!! // 05:12 p.m.
[x] Friday, September 12, 2003
Alli didn't like my quizzes... // 05:11 p.m.
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