Tuesday, May 10, 2005
I had been thinking about the boys who I had met through the years and I thought it was time to resolve a bit of my past.

To Graham Raymond:
Well, you were adorable... We were also in second grade. That's why I didn't dance with you at the spring ball. I was just young and frightened. I didn't mean to hurt your feelings. I regret not dancing with you.

To Brendan Abel:
Well, I had the biggest crush in the world on you. Well, it may not even have been a crush. It was just that we were friends for so long and I was used to having to only share you with Tyler. Then Lauren came along and I could tell she had the biggest crush on you. I think I felt that she was threatening everything that we had together and that fear made me act silly sometimes. I still can't decide if I had a crush or not, but I did and do hold you dear to my heart. I'm sorry for losing track of you.

To Jason Wheeler:
I hate you and I will always hate you. You stole my pencil sharpener.

To Michael Bernard:
I know that you didn't want to dance with me that time in 5th grade, but it was the last day of school and I was feeling adventurous. We just stood their awkwardly and I knew I shouldn't have done it. You obviously didn't like me, but I wish you would have at least humored the little weird girl for one song.

To Jesse Bean:
Look, I'm sorry I made you cry, but we really weren't dating.

To Jonathon Peirog:
I had a crush on you for a bit, but of course, you weren't interested. Not that I would say anything, but you asked me out once and stupid me, I said yes. Well, you were only trying to prove to Jesse that I didn't want to date him. You didn't really like me. I resent the fact that you would use me like that.

To Guy Montone:
Well, you were an adorable, obnoxious, foul mouthed red head. I liked you! That's the only reason I agreed to "date" your friend. I never actually met face to face with him... I wish I didn't just give into your demands because I thought that you were cute.

To Piotr Jarzjynski:
I had a crush on you. You hated me. I Only pushed you around a bit because I didn't know how to act... It destroyed my heart when I found out that you hated me. I really wasn't trying to be mean. I was just young and stupid.

To A.J. (Aaron):
Well, I was smitten with you. You were fun and interesting and always wore some bizarre army thing. We went to the mall once and I brought a friend because I was afraid to go alone. I wasn't very confident or experienced and I didn't want to be alone with you. I was afraid it would be awkward. It wouldn't have been, though. It's not like I hadn't talked to you a million times before... I really wish I hadn't scared you off. I really wish that I had asked you to call me again. I bet you're in the military now. I hope you're not fighting overseas. I hope you are very much alive and someday our paths will cross again.

To Frank Dixon:
You were cute. Yet another instance were I listened to someone I thought was cute. I also think I scared you. Sorry that I'm so weird.

To Dan Bonafilia:
Sorry that I wasn't really interested, but it was really creepy when you set your sites on my sister. I'm glad that she wasn't interested!

To Brian Bonafilia:
You were really mean to me from no reason and killed a part of me that was nothing but happy and carefree. I really resent that.

To Mathew Bonafilia:
You make me glad that I listened to Frank Dixon. I'm so happy that I yelled at you in Japanese and made you came out to play with us. We jumped and laughed and then a bunch of us sat on the trampoline and just talked. It was sort of cold, but we huddled under a blanket and the stars were out and it was wonderful. You're not always nice to me. A lot of times you treat me like crap and make me feel horrible, but when that happens, I still have lots of happy times to think back to. The day that I met you is a day that I will forever look back upon with sunshine and joy. I really want to stay friends forever with lots of sunny days.

To Stosh:
What can I say that we haven't already talked about? You still hold a place in my heart and I'm glad you didn't come to hate me. I can always say that most ridiculous things to you and you might laugh, but you still listen and take me seriously. You take me to the farm and let me feed that ducks. You tend to me when things I can't express are gnawing at my heart. You sit through my rants and even though you don't always agree, you don't think what I say is dumb. I thank you for that.

To All Other Boys:
These are just the sort of main boys I wanted to remember or say something about. There are others, like Nummy, that I just don't have anything to say to. I will say however, that I resent every single one of you who wouldn't give me the time of day. I know that I'm worth something regardless of how much you put me down. It makes me sick to think about you. // 11:11 p.m.

Friday, May 6, 2005
Uuum.. My school is getting DDR. I don't know if this means a machine or just dance mats for the communal PS2, but if it's a machine I will be the happiest person in the world.

I return next weekend. // 09:27 p.m.

Sunday, May 1, 2005
Tomas: Hola Juanita!
Juanita: Hola Tomas!
Tomas: Como estas?
Juantia: Muy mal! Y tu?
Tomas: ::eats Juanita:: // 09:33 a.m.

Sunday, May 1, 2005
If you have a problem with me, say it to my face you fucking assholes! // 08:41 a.m.

Wednesday, April 20, 2005
My friend said the new pope looks like the emporer from Star Wars... Now whenever I see his pictures can't help but give him evil mind powers! That's ones scary pope.

My l key is sticky... // 01:26 a.m.

Wednesday, April 13, 2005
I am emotionally deadened. I don't think I've cried or felt a strong emotion since That Time. I feel like a little part inside me that had been constantly bending back and forth finally snapped off that time; leaving me unable to function normally. Life is hectic, but the business is only covering for an underlying boredom that won't go away. Everything is pleasant. Everything is nice. Everything is fine. I am a machine full of empty smiles. I wonder if this is a sign of depression... // 12:17 a.m.

Saturday, April 9, 2005
Man... It sucks to always be right!

I had The Day From Hell today, but I got to ride in the Car Of The Future!!, so I guess that sort of makes up for it... (Not at all) // 01:24 a.m.

Friday, April 8, 2005
I've also noticed that I'm on the first page when you search for "Animal Crossing Nibbles pictures" and, um... Carne Wilson.

...Who the hell is that?? // 12:02 a.m.

Thursday, April 7, 2005
I thought that I should write a bit more. Soooo, I'll tell you about my lovely new layout! I made it myself! It has L and Raito(Or Light, whichever you perfer) and... Okay maybe it's not really that exciting. Either way I think that they should have had some sweet love loving. Also, my mind has been warped so now I think that Tom Riddle and Indian Jones share an eternal love.

Its a one thing for you to say or wish that the Dark Lord is really just misunderstood and only needs someone (Harry Potter) to show the path of love, but its another thing to actually believe it. Pooor, pooor little 14 year old fanfic writers.

And, frick! Let's make plushies! // 11:49 p.m.

Thursday, April 7, 2005
I miss the days when people wanted to do things with me. // 11:47 p.m.

Wednesday, April 6, 2005
I have one question for you... What is Gaijin Soup and where can I get some?! And more importantly, why is my webpage on the first page of results when you search for it? // 08:39 p.m.